1. |
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It’s okay, that's all. Kind of druggy
But i’m okay with death
I just don’t understand why it’s the first thing i think of when something goes wrong
And i’m not going to heaven
And you’re going to heaven
Not even in the afterlife can i have what i want
I might’ve wasted all the energy i had on that first song
And i don’t even think it’ll be the worst one
I know that i can’t have what i want
You’re an example of that
For so many reasons
You’re older than me, you’ve got a girlfriend, i’m sure you haven’t thought about me romantically once in your life
I don’t even think i should be writing this
I saw you first on the twenty-first of september, two years ago now
And i can’t thank you enough for talking to me
And there was this one time, where we talked for hours
It was after Max had left the granary
He was the last person there, so it was just you and me
And we read wiki articles about stuff we were interested in
And we made fun of stuff
And i got to sit next to you and i loved every minute of it
It was so calm
And i wished i could’ve kissed you right then
But you don’t like to be kissed
And you don’t like to be touched
And i hope your girlfriend knows it
And that she respects it
Because you deserve that, you deserve so much
I remember your inflection, your tone of voice
How comfortable you were whenever i sat on the couch with you
You asked if i was okay with it
And i said i was
i never recorded it
I was terrified you’d hear it
And you’d know how in love with you i am
And other fears too stupid to mention
Even though everything here is a confession
And i’m sure that once i put it out, it’ll make me look bad
But that’s okay
All i need in my life
Is you, my sunlight
And maybe that’s too far
And i’m going too hard
And the horns that will blow at my funeral already do so
But it’s okay
I didn’t need your help or your love anyway
A drunken cowboy, run
This symbol that you love
You carved it to your arm
Now fade outta the dawn
And somewhere there’s a place
Where it’s warm, and we’re both there, and i’ve got everything i wanted
And i know what to do for once to make myself start feeling again
And we have sex and it’s nice and it’s not a weird, sweaty mess
And my head doesn’t hurt and your head is left alone
And we smile at the sky and sleep until we don’t know who we are
A drunken cowboy, run
This symbol that you love
You carved it to your arm
Now fade outta the dawn
i remember when you asked me to hold your hand
and i don’t know if it was part of some plan
but i know that in the moment i was too nervous and too young and too stupid to just hold it
i had to sit there and sweat while i touched the back of my hand to yours
i still regret it
what could've started something was wasted on me being a confused idiot
my hands were so cold
you are the good things
you're the sunlight that i search for in the hallway right after i've woken up
you're the last ray of moonlight illuminating my room at night
you're a song by will toledo that makes me think about the good old days
you are the common sense knowing that i'm not going to ever be with you
you're the good things
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2. |
If You're Happy
03:52
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The last bits of my footsteps
Will still be here, in a time and place far unknown
Pressed in snow after walking home alone
And the last bits of your pretty hair
Will surely despair
But you won’t know
You won’t know that I like the empty streets
And if my bike is broke I’ll walk and scream
I owe you that at least
The GPS was broken, so this must be the place
Every single face that i just cannot erase
I guess the rain hit before i could put the ink in place
And where i thought I’d go is not my home
And I assessed that scene from underneath your sheets
And that’s why i know
the last bits of my footsteps impressed in snow
Will still be here a billion years in the future unknown
It’s a sickening and horrifying realization
One that I should’ve made years ago
I can be your free hand if you want me to be
I can be your best friend if you need me to be
I can be your walking and screaming
Through the empty streets
And tragedy has my heart beating hard
Like all the anger and fright put in a jar
It’ll be alright when my heart is out of my stomach
And maybe I’ll be calmer once I’ve actually done it
This time, i’ll do most things right
[hey. Can you hear me? It’s alright. You can leave. I’m sober, right now. I’d pass a breathalyzer test, I’d pass a drug test. Even though it’s like an itch that I just can’t scratch. Like that little spot on my back. You don’t even exist… though I understand why you can’t love me. You fell in love before me. But a long time ago, I said that as long as you were happy then you were happy. And there’s nothing else to talk about.]
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3. |
Anchorage
04:35
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It was December 23rd
i was 14 years old
my dad told me to bring my things downstairs
"we'll have a talk"
and i did just that
i brought everything to them
let them look through it all
and i told them all i could
it took two hours
he knew everything about me
he outed me to my whole family
and pretended like nothing ever happened
i told him i was going to run away
and he didn't care
he wanted me out of his life
as much as i wanted him out of mine
and i guess it's only fair
that what i said didn't give me a scare
after he threatened to break a bottle over my head
and made me wish i was dead
"i'm losing it," i said
and he just sent me away
and that night i was resolute
i couldnt fucking stay
i got a roll of 50's
And i started walking the lawns of my neighborhood
I didn’t bring my phone, or my laptop
I memorized the route
So i started walking the lawns of my neighborhood
And then the next one, and the one after that
It was cold, after an hour, i almost went back
and i readied myself to hop on a bus
and when i got to the depot
i turned tail and ran
i'm there, and i'm alone
i'm so sick of this
i want out of it
but we don't always get what we want
and i split myself in two every morning i wake up
And i wonder what it would be like if a piece of me could stay here
And another could live free without fear
On the road, my dad offered me a beer
And i said “no” i feel like he was gonna trap me
If i said yes
In a room with speeches and contests i can’t win
Trust me, i don’t think
I just bleed out iron and useless faith
You believe me, when i bleed
Because it’s a red river of numb hate
and i know i gotta stay put
there's nothing worse than being chained down
i know that now
this friday i'll take acid or mushrooms
and i'll walk around
i know that now
my dad told me something on the second of january
that he was happy that i was meek
and there is nothing in this world
that made me feel as week
he wants me out of his life
as much as i want him outta mine
and if i tried to ask why
id just as soon be dead
there's no reason this song should be called anchorage
but it still is
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4. |
Seventh Son
07:08
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There’s something in the bottom of a swimming pool
It pushes my throat through my neck
I noticed you have a type
One that i could never be
Because I am not that tall
And I’m not that goth
And when you look at me there’s not a lot to see
I wonder how your fighting’s going
I wonder if my parents know what I’m hiding
It’ll probably take a little longer
Holding out is harder than lying
How low is your self esteem?
How low do you possibly feel?
And you probably know I’m in love with you
So you can’t ignore me
I will stop cutting my shirts into tank tops
I will face the real repercussions of every lie I’ve told
I will sing the songs that I know you like
And then you’ll tell me “I wanna be alone”
For the rest of your life
Oh, but it is probably just my friends messing with me
Yeah, it’s probably just my friends messing with me
And if you don’t say the words or make any noise
Because you wanna keep us quiet
I’ll still know exactly what you mean
And ___ cut his hair in his room
He gave himself a mohawk
And I am a result of the culture that we both create
I am the last thing alive that you really do hate
How low is your self esteem?
How low do you possibly feel?
And you probably know I’m in love with you
So you can’t ignore me
I will stop cutting my shirts into tank tops
I will face the real repercussions of every lie I’ve told
I will sing the songs that I know you like
And then you’ll tell me “I wanna be alone”
For the rest of your life
Oh, but it is probably just my friends messing with me
Yeah, it’s probably just my friends messing with me
They never let me say a word
They always loved to, they are probably just messing with me
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5. |
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[I DONT KNOW WHERE I AM I DONT KNOW WHERE I WILL GO!!]
dont trust me, fucking think
drop your backpack
and throw away your drinks
when we were together
i didn't have to worry about anything
we shouted out like the land was ours
and you screamed "holy shit!"
she swept you off your feet
cuz it wasnt fucking me
because we only spent two nights or spilled liquor
and a room filled with sex and smoke
smells that still make me choke
when i was done, with a dry throat
I didn’t know, couldn’t have guessed
and youre the hit i shouldnt take
i could tear myself apart
and give one piece to you
and another could leave this shithole
and find someplace that was true
we went down to the bottom of the hill
and you sat me down and you said “lou
with a strong enough will
we would be real”
or something like that
don't bleed, just think
i'm only losing
because i'm not myself
turn to drink
and alleviate the pain inside a numb hell
NOTICE ME looking at your eyes
Before i’m too far away
Because I keep dreaming of the library
And how it is an everywhere
And things grew more complicated
Books and fanbases
Friends aren’t friends in polyphony
Noise that I can’t hear surrounds me
i've run into your problems with progress
you look me in the eye and say
"you're not what i wanted,
and you're definitely not what i need.
leave me alone
and keep going soullessly”
you put me too low
and i fell nowhere to go
I can fit one to the other, it just feels bad
It just feels bad to me
i change my name and dye my hair
and maybe i'll think the odds are fair
maybe it's crazy
that you left
and i stayed
i'm not your secret keeper
but it matters because
those weren't the plans i laid
and i couldn't help it if i stared as you backed out of the parking lot
Were you hoping a path laid out for an escape, miles n miles long?
at the most you pity me when you respond
and i'm breathing in the lack of air in my lungs
There were two of me
And one of them will say “Marshall?”
Way before now x a lot
Do I leave my soul for you to keep? or keep living soullessly?
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6. |
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where are you right now?
did you finally take a rest?
if you didnt, tell me how
heres your bed
i hope you enjoy
you live in a fantasy
nothing will hurt you anymore
because in your neighborhood, the sun doesnt set
i hope you enjoy
you mean something to me
the symbol of the good life ill never achieve
pain is real
somebodys here for you and then theyre not
and its not for making music about
its not about making into art
they say some disasters are natural and good
but as i feel the catastrophic consequences of my actions,
the sadness is not natural or good
its dumb, and i dont wanna learn anything from this.
after you, i had so may chances to
do all the things i would need to do
but im an omen, im bad luck
i dont deserve it, i dont give a fuck
i guess after so long avoiding it i come to the root
im never going to stop loving you
last time i talked to you i had just turned 14
now im older than that, but im still joining
the parts of myself i cant describe
with the parts of me that shouldve died
why not sever myself?
cut off the parts that wont work anyway
while i watch over your grave
why not sever myself?
cut off the parts that wont work anyway
while i watch over your grave
why not sever myself?
(become the one you wanted)
cut off the parts that wont work anyway
(become the one you deserved)
while i watch over your grave
(live in the houses you haunted)
why not sever myself?
(you are the one i hurt)
cut off the parts that wont work anyway
(become the one you wanted)
while i watch over your grave
(become the one you deserved)
why not sever myself?
(live in the houses you haunted)
cut off the parts that wont work anyway
(you are the one i hurt)
while i watch over your grave
(become the one you wanted)
why not sever myself?
(become what, you, you let me)
cut off the parts that wont work anyway
(let me in, let me in)
while i watch over your grave
(let me in, let me in)
why not sever myself?
(let me in, let me in)
cut off the parts that wont work anyway
(let me,)
while i watch over your grave
LET ME IN
and if you dont remember my name
if you never saw my face
then let my hand take their place
cut my fingers off
replace what you must
but if you take me for a fool
ky never told me
whatever happened to you?
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7. |
Castillo
13:52
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i used to like the mornings
id have messages from the night
but when all your friends have left
there's nothing to write
id stay up late at night
until dad told me otherwise
hed eye me up and down
and tell me it was bedtime
and in the morning
id go for breakfast in the garden
and feel my skin unfold in the sunlight
id wish i was wearing dresses at the right time
but when you're not here to tell me to go to bed
there's nothing to really write
if only i could sustain this feeling
make it grow to a point of asking ky
"does he miss me?"
I hold my pillow tight
Now, it happens every night
But with no one to tell you they’re here for you
I can’t feel like i feel right
And maybe you think i can learn from this mistake
No, this time, it’s what's gonna break me
If only I could sustain this feeling
And i can find in it some sort of meaning
It’ll remove the weight of everything i’ve done
And drag me to hell
But if i had my way
Would I have done what I did?
And if it was my choice, would I have let you live?
And if i’ve lost you, for good
It had to be this way
You hated me for years
Not even i could’ve wrecked it all in a day
I wish i could go to bed
But i’ve forced myself into my sorrow
And if all goes well, i’m not waking up tomorrow
I know i have to go down with this
No one’s waiting for me here
I deserved all this shit
I’m trading heartache for fear
I lost, it was meant this way
[spoken: it was the most expensive mistake i’ve ever, ever made. And for all I know, your blood is on my hands for no goddamn reason. And it was all my fault. For all i know, you’re dead, and she’s dead, and everyone i’ve ever loved is dead. But how was I supposed to know? What was I supposed to do when I dropped my amp on my feet? What was I supposed to do when mom asked me what I was drinking? What was i supposed to do besides ride a bike and fall down and hurt myself? What was I supposed to do when I had to make dinner for myself? What was I supposed to do besides get high every day after school, on the weekends, hell, in the mornings? (how was i supposed to know how to get you back? How was i supposed to know how to get you back?) how the hell was i supposed to know? It was an expensive mistake, and i can’t say that i’m sorry, now that it’s all over. I have this body that isn’t mine, with friends that aren’t mine, and I was given a mind that can’t work itself, (and what about what’s happening to me right now?) and how the hell was i supposed to know how to get you all back? (and vacation by a lake didn’t make me feel good) and what about another fucking vacation to make me feel good? They killed me to get to where they are! And how was I supposed to know? Because god won’t forgive me, and you won’t forgive me, not until i let the lies coalesce and i open up, and how i am i supposed to do that, when i sleep in that same bed every night, holding my pillow with a grip that could kill someone, wishing it was you, the same bed, with the quilt and the dozens of pillows! And I sink into it and I feel like I'm dying, and the sea I'm drowning in right now is too familiar. How many times have I died here? How many times have I died? How many times have i died?]
I give up
I give up
Jesus died for someone’s sins
And i know how it feels to be called
When you’re fast asleep
And then we were divided it was someone beside us
But it was not because of us
And i wanna go back to where i wasn’t him
And we were united, completely undivided
And then we were separated it was someone beside us
But it wasn’t for us
I was so naive
I practically told you to tell me a lie that i’d believe
I wanted control here, but that is normal
Cause i’m not living, i’m surviving
I haven’t made decisions, because my parents have been deciding
My life’s on the line, i’ve committed social suicide for the second time
And i’m giving myself another chance
Because you’re wanting another dance
And now we get all our shit for free
And on a bed of trash we sleep
Avert your eyes from my body
One last time i will say i’m sorry
It doesn’t feel wrong, doesn’t feel alright
I don’t miss mom i guess this is my life
And all this useless energy will just
Keep on perpetuating the life that i’m living
That will eventually stop, for the best part
I give up
I give up
I wanna go back to where i came in
United for a revelation
So scared of what i’d say, i’d cried
And it was me
Stopped at your line, stripped my disguise
And listened to a record that won kendrick a pulitzer prize
It was alright, i saw myself in it
And i was disturbed at what you led to
And what the likelihood was that you’d find out the truth
And now i have become one of you
I give up
I give up
I give up
I give up
I give up
I give up
And you woke up shaking
From an imaginary world where i drowned out in the river
I wake up and hold you tight in my arms
I love you so much
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I don’t want this feeling or this baggage
I don’t wanna have to tell people complicated stories
About who i used to be and why i’m different
And look like someone else completely
I wanna fade into the background
I wanna be conveniently fragile
I wanna feel better knowing something
Is gonna go my way
But I don’t know how you like your hair cut
Or how you like your tea
And i guess it’s a tiny unimportant detail
But it means something to me
And don’t cry my love
It stopped hours ago
And when my arms become smoke
Will you still be here to hold?
I can feel my body breaking down
you're in my head making change
like all the revolutions you lead
you're the friends of my friends that i don't see
you're the vonnegut book i never read
you're the bedrooms of my parents
you're the bedrooms of those friends
you make me wonder
What the hell happened to them?
and in the inspirations you made
and in the foundations that you laid
i stare out of my window
and watch you run from home
and know youre alone
and i think of my parents
and my parents friends
and i wonder what conclusions they've read
and i think of my parents
What the hell happened to them?
but all of this is made of shit
nothing i said was what i meant
and i wish i could be a hero
and stop all your torture
but i can't
i guess this is all i can do
and i gotta make peace with it
i have to make that commitment and it's dragging me down
i tried to do it once but it didn't work out
i'll get it right this time
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9. |
Shed
08:17
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stop writing for other people
stop pretending that youre not evil
and if these songs mean so much to you
why dont you tell the people theyre about, that, too
my friend sam said that id be fine
and overwhelmingly, my other friends tell me im
alright
im logan's comfort person, and im a close friend to em
but if thats the case i gotta wonder, what the hell happened to them?
youll talk about me the way you talk about gianna
but its me, the one you pity, you have to hang out even if you dont wanna
and i hate myself for that
i tried to make myself seem better to all of marshalls friends
every time i try even a little bit i can tell they want it to end
what if i just wanna be left alone?
did you ever consider that?
did you ever think about the fact that i like being home
i cant hurt anybody like that
because hurting people is all i have left
so i wanna be better at hurting than anybody else
and i hate myself for that
you shed your skin, just like aiden did
like bellas anger at being another piece of shit
and when i was walking i thought to myself,
"what if they all get angry over nothing?"
but i never thought about what itd be like for them
to be angry over something
and theres nothing in plymouth for me
that i couldnt learn to love here
true love wont be waiting for me when i get back
nor would any of the things i need but i lack
and i hate you for the things you never did
all the times you never helped me out of the shit
and all the times you loaded my guns with blanks
and when i fired there were just ten more of their ranks
and maybe i do hate emma as much as i love you
for all the things she did to hurt you
for all the times she pushed you to booze
for all the times she called me a dude
for all the times she hurt you
some people deserve redemption
and i hate myself for that
i hate myself for that
and i am quite happy to let things fizzle out
to never respond and to let them doubt
if thats what it comes down to
if thats what it comes down to
why not sever your connections?
climb your mountain on your own
why not tell everybody you know
with no metaphor, exactly what you think
why not tell emery?
i hate myself for that
william, one shot two shots
if you dont understand the meaning
what the hell are you feeling
william, one shot two shots
hold me tight,
all through the night
william, one shot two shots
just hold me, whoever you may be
understand the meaning and know what you're feeling
all i know is that i dont love my friends enough to stay
and all i know is if i dont leave now, i will never be able to get away
and all i know is you can never go home again
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10. |
Dying, PT 2
03:25
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Hey please
It’s the way we speak
Forming our words so easily
And i think of how we were
Thinking of now and how you call me ‘her’
You’re all that keeps me sure
And i remember a message i wrote to you
And though I never sent it, I sure hope i do
“I haven’t stopped crying
My mom’s always lying
Dad called me a fag
I need somewhere to stay
And i remembered you always said
Your home was open to me
There’s just nowhere else I can be”
And i read it over and said “no,
It can’t be like that at all”
I thought of the bottle
And how we drank it
It’s okay i promise
That’s what you said
I don’t think that’s what you meant
I sleep in my grave all called a bed
I cried and sought my death
I remember the way you looked at me at the store
It’s a shame we’re not soulmates because i swore
That felt pretty good
And how could I ever be scared
When i look to the left and you’re there
So go to sleep babe
And we can talk in the morning
And if I wasn’t such an insufferable narcissist
Maybe i could have been a better partner
And maybe all my songs could have been a little
Less literal
And then i woke up in the hallway
Sunlight shining in my eyes
And through all I can’t imagine
I imagine I survived
I can feel your presence their
When i walk to the ____ and give it a stare
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11. |
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There is a chest,
made of skin and love
And it houses
Pictures of broken glass and the lake
On which i once lived
Before, when you were younger
And i did not exist
Before, we learned how to drink or think about drinking
Your step became a stumble even more every day
Every time, you would break your beer bottle
The scabs became your skin
An addition of hate, or pride, for the wasteland
Of clogged traffic we live in
But even worse, than any of that
The future you want, the future you see
The one that you are completely okay with
I could wait up when i’m sick
For you to ask why i was not at school
But it’s something that you are completely okay with
You’ve been standing outside my apartment
I’m sitting on the couch and i cannot see enough of it
You’ve been standing outside my apartment
I’m sitting on the couch and i cannot see enough of it
Tell me, in all honesty, nicole
Where do you see yourself tomorrow
Do you worry after school each wednesday,
If your friends will not be there to help you?
Do you wonder, every friday,
Where will you sleep tonight?
Where will you sleep tonight?
Your sanctuary is March 12th, 2020
When i insisted on not letting you near it
You’ve been standing outside my house
I’m sitting on the couch and i cannot see enough of it
You’ve been standing outside my house
I’m sitting on the couch and i cannot see enough of it
I will not speak of us ever again
Because if it isn’t spoken of
Then history will never know it happened
If you never hear from me again
Then no one will know about me
Then no one will know about me
Do we know the truth of every step we took?
Only if it’s never said
Only if it’s never said
Forgotten when it isn’t told
Undesired and alone
There is no story left
We’ll meet up in some hotel bar
Be it fancy or in the middle of nowhere
And we will comfort each other
Like we never got the chance to before i said goodbye
You’ll beg for it to be just like the old days
But there were no fucking old days
So it won’t be the fucking old days,
No it won’t be the fucking old days
Only now with nothing in our hearts
And something called a blank part
Will it be better than before?
Will it be better than before?
Have we practiced with others
Or will we be too nervous, caused by that exact thought
Will it be better than before?
Will it be better than before?
Will it be better than before?
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12. |
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There’s enough left
Of my nonsense
To digest
Maybe i needed you,
But i had so much more to lose
And now i guess it makes sense
That we’re both recluses.
And i cut it off with you when I
couldn’t tell the difference between no use and too cute
It’s just not that easy to be around you
When winter ends, i’ll hit a wall
And ride my bike into the fall
Because that’s when I had it all
I wanna lay down and melt under the sun
I wish i could sleep until the year is gone
I wore my throat out by screaming my way down south to Carolina
As life sinks its teeth into my throat making me breath in stones
Oh, but our shoes don’t last too long in this town
The gravel grabs at the soles
And when we find our way into the city
The sidewalk will make us grow old
And I’ll make sure to die before i reach thirty
Or what if I just disappear?
If it’s easiest to forgive and forget
Let it all just disappear
And don’t forget everything you said
About not telling anybody what was happening to us
And when you left, said “DON’T FORGET ABOUT ME”
Honestly, even if I wanted to, do you even think I could?
And it’s getting cold here in plymouth county
The snow is blocking us in
And the preachers at the church’s front is funny
Claiming it’s punishment for sin
I light my lighter under my hand to feel the flame
It’s dark in my room and i need something to heal the pain
I check behind my bed for a bottle of liquor i used to keep there
But then i remember the promise I made that I’d stop drinking
So i wouldn’t turn into you
But don’t focus on that
It could be next month or next year
But we’re goners, let me go
(maybe someday you will love me, but i don’t think i can wait.)
It was snowing in plymouth county
Enough to lock us in our homes
Our houses became tombs
And we were destined to die alone
And when i look out i can almost see
Where we were sitting
The day before we died
Tucked under trees in the reservation
Wondering why we can’t be alive
When the heat gave out in the county
We wandered into our graves
I screamed until my throat turned out
If i could just have another day (to say goodbye)
And pot didn’t do a thing
Just like Marshall, it made me sick if anything
But when i used it i was smiling
Because at least i was with someone
I know that he’s better than he thinks he is
Maybe I should give him a call
Before i drop out and think “jesus,
Is this where I was meant to lull?”
And I’ll sit in the very back of the bus
Spread out and make myself comfortable
It’s a long way from Plymouth to Maine
And I open myself up and
spill the last of my brain onto your head
To bring you back from the dead
Because I would do anything
To have you around instead of me
And soon enough, when i get fed up
That’ll be how it is, after I leave
Unaware of the bleakness
Of the outer world
I’ll have to figure things out
Before I become a girl
It was snowing in plymouth county
Enough to lock us in our homes
Our houses became tombs
And we were destined to die alone
Am i imaginary?
Or am I just too quiet
For people to notice me
(Booker, are you afraid of god? No, but I’m afraid of you.)
You wrote me off, i called it funny
We took you home, in polyphony
I made friends with your nonexistent presence
But when I was alone, it was just silence
Your cozy stare had my eyes feeling nice
I missed you most on the nights i could sleep
Oh, but i never liked sleeping with strangers
When I consider it, it seems fine
But when I get there you’re on my mind
So, no, i never liked sleeping with strangers
I’ve been following into moonlight
But indifference’s shine is too bright
If i make it outta this, I’ll be blind.
I wander on and on and on and on and on
And i could see you above the line of trees
Covering the reservation’s outline
And I'm screaming out “I love you!” like the words are mine
Like where have all my friends ended up?
You got a big heart, i admit
But it’s unhealthy, so give it a rest
Keep close to your chest like the impostors we are
It’s funny, but it’s not good
I’m closer to nobody in my life
If only we had something to grab onto
That didn’t make us wanna die!
But none of it matters now
I’m held together, poorly stitched at times
I can make it through light weather
As long as i tell myself I’m alright
I know it really sucks
I got tired waiting when you went away
But I just can’t hang around too much
For you to just stay in the same place
I’m terrified to say that there’s nothing left
When i think of you, i can’t even picture you in my head
There is dirt on my palms
For every unused drug
Caught me sleeping, sure
Tell me you’re leaving, sure
I’m just fucked up, and I miss everyone
I thought you loved me
I thought you wanted me to heal
All your lovers are gone
The songs have stopped and laid silent
You’re sinking like a stone in a tideless ocean
The river doesn’t run anymore
Your fight is over
Still the ruins of what you used to love
Are calling out for you
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13. |
Dear
00:59
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Are you there?
Are you awake?
Did you cut your hair?
Are you falling asleep to the rain?
Maybe someday you will love me
But i can’t wait around
The fight is over
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